[Gemini]

Sunday
July 29, 2007
2:33 PM

On Hellzpori's and Auvi's comments and random tidbits of life

Hellzpori: "but hey! .. the world was created to be destroyed right? .. so i guess whatever is happening is our destiny nd nothing more .."

Well the way I see it...God has more than one road open. If you take Road 1, you end up somewhere. If you take Road 2, your destination is different than Road 1. If you take Road 3....Hope you're getting the idea.

So I guess the road we're on now will take us to destruction. Because that's what God had in mind for us. Road 3 - The path to destruction. If we took Road 1 or 2, it might've been different. Maybe we still have a chance to go back and choose our road again, this time carefully. Or maybe it is quite late and we just have to keep going and face our destiny. The world was created to be destroyed but maybe in a different manner? I don't know!

Auvi...insult korla?

Random tidbits:

I woke up to a quiet house. It was just after 12, almost 1 pm. I remember I was dreaming...two of my dreams meld into one. I can get into details of the first one, should be quite interesting but I guess I won't. It's a little ghost story. A bit sad. I just play one of the supporting roles in the play. One of those people who comes to know about the person in question. It's a pretty interesting dream. I've seen it...I guess about 3/4 times so far. The other one is quite happy. Me picking blueberries from the blueberry bushes and living a pretty carefree life. Imagine what happens when two of these meld into one

Yeah so the house was unbelievably empty and quiet. I know at least my bro was home because he's the first person I saw when I first woke up (I basically wake up 2/3times before actually leaving the bed. It's this old habit of mine. I, or rather my mind, wake up really early (usually after dreaming), then fall asleep. Then wake up again but this time go into a half-asleep state till my body fully wakes up. I'm not one of those early risers, people who are able to jump off the bed at the drop of a hat! I resemble a cat more in this case.

My home is anything but quiet. Even if there's no one talking, at the very least there'll be the Tv. Today it was nothing of that sort. So this quietness was kinda making me feel awkward. When I was standing in front of the 2nd floor bathroom mirror, I could hear the living room door gently squeaking to the open breeze. So someone had to be home. The door was open.
After freshening up, I came downstairs to see my sis at the computer. Ah. But my bro and mom was missing. I asked her "where are they?" She told me they were out. Um yes...that was pretty visible. I lounged around a bit til my bro came back and it was anything but quiet after that!

The day feels very weird. Some kinda surpressed tension. Well that makes sense since the past two days have been like that. Am not in speaking terms with my mother. I don't have much talk to her about at this point. Specially after what happend 2 nights ago

Dad should give me a call soon from Dhaka. I don't know our house's phone or even his cell no. Ami oi bashar no. jani nah. Address to aroi nah. I just know the road no. and how the old building has turned into this monstrosity of an apartment. Well am sure the number is written somewhere in the address book but I don't feel like leafing through it. I need to give him a short message about one of my friends. And I need to know a couple of things as well.

Bhabchi....

The cacophony has started once again.

And now it has stopped. Temporarily, ofcourse.

Vashkor hotath kore chup kore gechhe. He's a friend of mine. I met him through another friend of mine called Mashfiat. Eder duijon ke ami ekhono dekhini since they're both in Dhaka. It's funny how most of the people I have so much in common with, people I get along so well with don't live near me. Even my best friends live 2 hours away. In almost different cities.

Wonder how Mashfiat is doing. It's been quite a while we've chatted. I hope things are going well with him. I miss our old Msn addas. Orokom adda mara hoy na aar...anything from alien life force to music, to mythology to...capitalism to current events! I miss that guy. Maybe I should mail him. It's a bad habit of mine to think about people but not making the move to know let them know.

I haven't been in touch with my cousins back home for months, if not years. I still don't know how one of their daughter sounds like. She's almost 3 and I still don't know how she sounds like when she laughs. I don't know how they feel about that. Is she even aware of my existence? Maybe she is. Am the khalamoni who lives in Canada. Kinda like a mythical creature that can not be seen. I often talk/think about changing this kintu hoye othe nah. No wonder people think am aloof and distant sometimes. I give them a reason to think that way. Hmm

Quote of the day:

The real hell of life is that everyone has his reasons.
- Jean Renoir