[Addabaj]

Sometimes I think about myself, contemplate my past, my duties, what I had done before. It’s really impossible to escape from my own. Most of the time it gives me pain and sometime I starts to hate myself because I haven’t done a lot of things in my life. I left a lot of fair chances to gain something in this life, runaway from lots of responsibilities. I need to confess now. Confess to me, confess to all of you. I’m not gonna write about what I’ve done or t, but I’ll try to give a brief of my limitations and bad habits along with the good ones. But the list of awful things that I have inside me will be much longer then the good ones. Quite shocking, isn’t it?



The bad things inside me:

1. I’m very short tempered, but most of my contacts think that I can’t lose my temper.
2. I always do my duties on eleventh hour.
3. I’m totally acted as a bohemian in my home with my things. I put my very useful and valuable things scattered all around me.
4. I have a very bad habit of smoking.
5. I never take my food on time and never eat any balanced food, use to take a lot of junk food instead of having some nutritional foods.
6. I avoid talking to known people unless it becomes very necessary.
7. I don’t go to any of my friend’s house to spend some time with.
8. I don’t participate to any family party in here.
9. I spent my time in front of my pc, even when I take food, except having a shower or go to the toilet.
10. I don’t concentrate to any song.
11. The most wired thing in me is sometimes I think too much with some matters that don’t required that. I take some unnecessary things as an offence to me, but that was for fun only.
12. I let some serious matters to go where it needs to be concentrated.
13. I use to give unnecessary guidelines to people.
14. I use to forget about my limits with my beloved ones.
15. I tell unnecessary lies with people.
16. Sometimes I act as I’m very happy with something where I was totally devastated about the incident.
17. I want to do the things with my knowledge and skill, but it may have its own way to do. For this matter, I get in a situation with my bosses.
18. I can’t tolerate a person who doesn’t do his/her duties properly, where I do the same thing now and then.
19. I use to get people into trouble deliberately, but I actually don’t know why.
20. Sometimes I get involved with others difficulties where it’s not necessary.
21. I’m a very lazy man; sometimes I fall into sleep on my work hours, but don’t take rest in my home when it is extremely necessary.
22. I use to hide my actual emotions from everyone of this earth.
23. Sometimes I make false commitments.
24. I do cruel comments to people which can hart anyone.
25. I use to annoy my beloved with telling about a thing simultaneously, get worried too much, give instructions without a reason, act as a baby and show extra emotions about some matters.
26. I make a comment about anything where I don’t know the fact, sometimes without having any proper knowledge about that matter.
27. I skip my prayer times without any proper reason, where I never miss the time of work, no matter what time it is.
28. I like to have a lot of chocolates, ice creams, cokes, meats, oily foods, fried foods, eggs where I’ve crossed 30.
29. Sometimes I ignore people who really love me.
30. I use to forget that I’m over 30, a middle aged man, not a teen anymore.

The list is growing bigger, it’s terrible. Let it stop for now. Let me find something good inside me, if there is any.



The good things inside me:

1. I love my friends and family very much.
2. I say my prayers 5 times a day.
3. I use to help known and unknown people.
4. I obey the laws.
5. I can take responsibilities about some very hard to do things.
6. I love babies very much.
7. I don’t drink alcohol.
8. I can organize people and make them do something.

………… …………… …………. …………… can’t find anything else after thinking about 10 minutes .



Okay, that was me, Addabaj . It was pretty shocking to write anything about myself, especially on this topic. But I’ve tried to explain and confess. You can hate me, or love me as well because it’s me, with all the good and bad manners, with all of my liabilities and limitations.