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Porikkha ebong amar kahini

Tuesday
Oct. 30th, 2007
11:06 pm

Porikkha dorgorae ele manusher bestota shotogoon bere jae. Nawa khawa bhule shobai boi potre dube jae. Onek shomoy onichha thaka shotteo. Jibon prai theme jae. Upae nei to, porte hobe. Pore shob uttor jene porikkha diye pass kortei hobe. Duniyar baki shob chinta janala diye doure palae. Amar boro bon ke dekhechhi, cousin der dekhechhi. Parar manush ke dekhechhi. Nijer bondhuder o dekhi.

Ek amiy erokom konodin korte parlam na. Porikkha ele jeno amar anondo ulto bere jae. Boi potro chhowa bondho kore dei. Gaaye furfure batash laagiye ghure berano bere jae amar. Ami borabori ektu fakibaaj typer. Porashuna bhalo laage, laage na kebol porashunar shathe baki shob jinish gulo. Ei jemon ekta nirdishto shomoye ghumote jawa, ghum theke otha. Ekdom shokale shomoy moto class e dhoka. Eta amar konodini hoy na. Folafol? Prai protideen ei shokale class e late noyto absent. Raat e ghumer poriborte jege jege golpor boi ebong gaan shuntei jeno anondo beshi.

Goto dui shondha belae ami downtowner rastae ghure ghure shomoy katiyechhi. Art supplier dokan khujhte giye raat neme gele College Park er rastar dhare benche e boshe Tim Horton er coffee khete khete manusher pothochola dekhechhi. Gotokal theke boi khata tule rekhe chhobi akar khata khule boshe achhi. Ei hocche amar obostha

Shokale uthe class e jawar chaite aro adha ghonta beshi ghumate ki je moja! Ami onek alshe ebong ektu beshiy...ulto. Beche gechhi Allah mogoj ta puropuri onurbor kore amake duniyate pathanni bole. Tar kache onek kritoggo ami. Kono na kono karone dekha jae amar mark onek bhaloi thake . Manush roj ekta nirdishto shomoy kore porte boshe, ami tao kori nah. Porashuna ichha moto.

Ei kheyalepona niye oboshsho shongoto karone bipodeo porechhi. Ki korbo boring class moteo bhalo lagto na bole kom faaki marini. Tobe dhora kheyechhi onek, onek kom. Kheleo prai shob shomoye amar ekta valid ojuhaat thaktoi. Porashunae kichu bocchor pichiye jawar mul karon oboshsho onno. Shetar bhitor jete ichha korche na.

Kotha shuru korechilam porikkha diye. Ekhon final porikkhar shomoy. Matro 3/4 deen porei exams gulo shuru hobe. Protita class e 2 ta kore exams. Shob miliye 6 ta. Ami moha anonde raat jege jege desh theke ana Jafor Iqbal aar Shomoresh Mojumder er boi pore jacchi. Shathe magazines to achhei. Law'r assignment ta oboshsho besh bhaloi hoyeche kintu too bad beshi shomoy paini bole 5 ta essay'r jaegae 2 to korechhi. First part ta oboshsho purota korechhi. Jototuk kora hoyechhe taate full marks ebong shathe instructor er comment "What you did was really good!! What happened to the other 3 essays??!". Bechari bodhdhoy ektu dukkhito o hoyechhe. Korar kicchu nei, goto shoptahe haate asholei ekdom shomoy chilo na.

Ami aaj bikele boshe boshe bhabchilam porbo ta ki? Porar to kicchu nei. Kono term mukhosto korar nei, kono assignments jome nei. Tobe? Kintu manush to porikkhar shomoy pore. Amar eidik e golpor boi porar chhara kono kichhui nai. Maa baba ke bolle gheti dhore boi er bhetor chubiye rakhbe amake. Moteo bishash korbe na je amar asholei.....porar kichu nei . Tahole exams dibo kemne? Sheta niyeo amar moteo chinta hocche na. Jeno ami shob jene boshe achhi.

Shob shomy erokom hoy. Exam er aage shobai beshi beshi serious hoye jae, ami hoy ulto. Amar anonde gaan gaite ichha kore. Jeno amar moto chintahin manush duniyate nei! Shobar ki dukkho amar ki anondo!!! Class e ichha moto jawa shuru kori (emniteo shokaler class tae erokomi kori. Protidin shudhu jodi jetam shobar majhe prothom howa amar jonno kono bepar na, kintu jai nah. Instructorer o kicchu bolar nei karon shomoy moto shob kichui joma diye dei. Uni shudhu ektai comment korechen midterm report e "Your marks could go up if you're just here everyday". I couldn't bother less )

Ami je ki kore ektar por ekta class pass hoye jacchi ta ami nijeo thik bujhte parchi nah. Shob gulo College/University amake keno ek kothae accept kore fello tao bujhte parchi nah. Jei major choose korlam shekhane sthaan matro 90 joner. Apply kore deshi bideshi, ei shohorer ebong desher onnano sthaan theke asha prai 1000 ero beshi students.

Apply kore chup boshe achhi. Shob gulor letter elo. Letter elo na kebol oi course er. Ek shomoy shetao elo, mandatory test dite hobe. Shetae allowed hole tarpore arekta. Test dite giye deri hoye gelo. 5 tolay test ami ek tolar elevator porjonto jokhon pouchhulam tokhon shuru hote katae katae 5 minute baki. 5 talay uthe room ber kore jokhon dhuklam tokhon ekdom 1 ta beje gechhe. Bhaggo boshoto test tokhono shuru hoy ni. Holo aro prai adha ki ek ghonta por. Beshir bhag tai chilo nijer chinta dharar opor. Amar nijer chinta dhara kemon ta to oneke janoi. Ja bhabi, bole dei sposhto. Diye chole elam.

Tarpor abaro opekkha. 2nd tar daak pore ki na. Odik e bhabchi baki course gulor ki hobe? Law assistant hoye jabo naki Artist? Naki etar jonno opekkha korbo? Mon bollo opekkha korte. Maa o tai chan. Aka akir bepar ta jeno shudhu matro shokh hishabei thik ache. Manlam. Ek bikele cell bajlo. Shey course er Program Director nije jokhon bollen amake accepted kora hoyeche kintu 2nd test dite hobe na ebong uni personally asha korchen ami unar program tai choose korbo, tokhon amar akash theke pore jawar moto obostha hoyechilo.

Bashay upohaar pelam maa er gaal. Gaal khawar karon achhe. Oi je amar gaaye furfure batash lagiye ghure berano. Unar ek bhoi ami nirghaat golla khabo. Golla je aage khaini ta noy. Tar karon chhilo. Boyosh chhilo kom, ebong jibone chhilo hajarer chaiteo beshi shomoshsha. Porashuna ta chhere diyechhilam. Baddho hoyechhilam onekta. Boro kothin chilo shey shomoy gulo. Ekhon bhable nijeke boyosher chaite onek onek boro mone hoy. Mone hoy oshob koshto gulo experience kore boyosh er deek diye mentally onek boro hoye gechhi.

Jai hok. Ei holo amar mutamuti kahini. Bidhata amake onek upokar korechhen tai majhe majhe tar upore prochondo khobh holeo rege jawar aage du baar bhabi. Amar job ta moteo stable na, tarporeo ki kore jeno pocket kokhono khali thake na. Ar orokom holeo kottheke jeno taka eshe jae. Porashunar nomuna to likhlami. Tarporeo final exams dewar aage green signal peye gelam 148 student er majhe (e bochor shongkha barate tara baddho hoyeche). Jibone onek ghaat protighaat shojjho korte hoyeche amar, tarporeo bolbo ami onek shukhi