Almost a year

self_shattered · #1 (**permalink**) 09-06-2007, 10:13 PM

This 14th it will be a complete year i lost my friend and his brother in the deep blue ocean.

Below read what their sister wrote about their death.

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its been almost six months since my brothers have been shifted to that mysterious world. . each n everyday I used to think of writing about that day but I didn't dare to do so.. my main effort since that day was not to recall that 14th September if I want to continue.. though well-wishers around want me to write about the day, to face those memories by bringing them back in order to continue.. now I'm trying to do so for them and for my mom.. above all for my bhaias'... 13th September, 2006 Wednesday We were supposed to start for cox's bazar tonight. Abbu and me reached home in the evening along with my cousin sis nahid who was supposed to go with us. today I also had my last NSU advising.. I started packing my things up in a hurry after reaching home.. Our Bus is supposed to start around 10 as far as I can remember and Choto mama didn't arrive when its almost 9- me and Saad were very much annoyed about that.. finally mama arrived.. then we started from home after my mom's friend and her son arrived.. So, we were a group of eight.. Abbu went with us up to the counter to see us off as he is not going with us... (later on found out that this was the last meeting of Abbu with his sons...) 14th September Thursday We arrived at Cox's Bazar around 7.00 in the morning. As our rest house was already packed with other people so for the first time we went on staying at a hotel.. Saad and choto mama went for booking the return ticket.. After that, when Saad arrived, He and Afif (these are my two little bhaias') was getting crazy to go to the beach. Saad was always crazy about Cox's Bazar and this trip is mainly his initiative. but at that time, I didn't wanna go to the beach coz I was very much tired as we couldn't sleep at night during the journey. So, I was trying my best to make delay to their plan. but at last, around 10-30, I had to move on along with them and we were heading for the beach.. The day was very bright. It seemed suddenly the weather has changed. me, nahid, Saad and Afif went for the water while ammu, her friend and choto mama was sitting on the beach side and watching us.. this was my cousin nahid's first cox's bazar trip.. So we four was there and making our usual fun. I always feel very much light when I'm around my brothers and Saad was my main source of entertainment. then we moved to another side (not far from the beach) where water was very calm. but one unusual thing was waves were coming from both direction on that particular place. then around 11-30, I decided to go to ammu's place leaving water. Saad was asking me to stay again and again but I was not interested coz was worried of going dark by the water and heat. then razib (my mom's friend's son) came and took two photographs of Saad, Afif and Nahid. (thanx to him coz those two was my bhaias' last photographs!) and I returned to ammu's place leaving them. After I reached there, suddenly ammu started shouting saying why they went that far in the water though I couldn't see anything. then ammu, mama and rozy khala started running towards them and I stayed there with the bags and stuffs. I was not worried at all and nothing negative hit my mind. we were at cox's bazar before and its natural that they are playing in the water. there are lots of people as well who went much further than them. I didn't have the slightest idea what was going on there. I just could see a gathering of people from that distance. Again I played the dumb role! Nahid came to me few times later and told me to pray coz they couldn't find Saad and Afif. Still I couldn't imagine the exact scenario. I kept on waiting over there for ammu, mama to bring Saad, Afif. then razib came for the cell ph in order to contact abbu and was asking me to go to ammu. I was quite surprised why should I go to ammu and why ammu is acting that way? Bhaias' must be somewhere and they are gonna come back, isn't it?? I was totally confused- what should I do or I need to do... Soon people from our rest house came, then the local people, journalists- there was a huge gathering and people were asking weird questions. Some people were like-God! what will happen to them, now?? At that time I was feeling like slapping all those people! why they were saying all these evil things?? Nothing happened to my brothers.. people took ammu to our rest house and tried to take me.. My brain didnt let me to think anything more- I was just watching the huge sea in front of me and trying to think where my little bhaias' can be! time is running.. its now totally dark outside... now I became really scared! where my bhaias' are? wht they r doing in the giant, dark sea?? ammu and others are going through surah Yasin continuously and asked me to do so. I tried to but couldn't concentrate at all! people was assuring us that they are trying best- the forest department people, the Navy, Porjoton Corp.- everybody is conducting the search- we are going to get bhaias' back inshaallah! whenever I open my eyes, there lies that giant sea in front me coz the rest house is just on the beach side. so there is no way of avoiding that sight! and that very place from where bhaias' just vanished in a moment- red flag is now accompanying the place.. 15th September Friday That horrible night passed. Mama again went to the sea side after Fazr prayer to find them. Zulfikar bhaia and Tanvir bhaia reached the rest house from Dhaka. then Babu bhaia from Ctg. They informed khalamoni and mamas' are on the way to cox's bazar. suddenly there was a police van and the Inspector was discussing something with mama and bhaias'. I tried my best to listen but when they noticed me, they moved somewhere else. By that moment, all the evil thoughts were blocking my mind. khalamoni and mamas' reached by noon and told that me and ammu needs to leave cox's bazar with them by the early possible flight coz abbu was not in a good shape and the rest of the people will bring bhaias' back to Dhaka. I couldn't describe those moments- when we were leaving cox's bazar, the huge sea, it seemed I'm leaving my bhaias' forever! Only for abbu-ammu, I did so... this was the most helpless journey I ever had! We reached Baily Road around 11 at night from the Airport. I never seen such a huge crowd in front and inside of our home! Why there are so many people? As soon as I got down from the car, I could hear people saying- hold her tight, she wont be able to walk etc. And then there was my group of cousins took me to my room. I was looking for abbu. they said abbu is some where around and will come soon. I was on the floor- sitting and surrounded by my cousins and others. they were asking me what happened over there again and again. I tried my best but could not talk . I was just watching the time again and again and wondering why bhaias' are still not here! then abbu came to my room and was trying his best to act normal infront of me. I came to know later on that everyone was worried watching my condition coz neither I was talking nor I was crying. At one point, Shihab bhaia forced me to take some tablet and few minutes later, I couldn't stop falling asleep. 16th September Saturday I woke up early in the morning by different ph calls in my room. No body slept the whole night I could understand. Boro Khalamoni was talking to someone over the phone saying- No, I wont be able to tell Naznu (ammu) what happened. then Sakib (my cousin) was talking of BIRDEM, Coffin, we won't be able to keep the bodies for long- things like that. Again they stopped when they noticed that I'm awake. God! I won't be able to state how I was feeling hearing all these! Something my subconscious mind understood but I'm refusing to accept. I've done everything they told me like a good girl. I got up, changed my dress, went to ammu by making sure that I won't cry in front of abbu-ammu no matter what happens and I did so! Something good must happen- Allah cannot do like this to me! And people around me was trying their level best to make me cry. Then came that moment- they were asking me to go outside and watch bhaias' for the last time because they will take bhaias' to the... I didn't see them- I didn't dare to... I have seen my bhaias' in a different way all the time- how can I see them sleeping that way?? I know whenever I'll meet them later on, they will be in front of me like before. I can exactly recall the way I was sitting in that corner of my room by the window (surrounded by my friends and cousins) and from there I could see hundreds of people and two coffin lying among them- just in front of my room, under the shed. My abbu-ammu was watching everything- I know they are two special creation of Allah! Finally, they took my bhaias' away... Finally the mystery was resolved- the mystery behind bhaias’ sudden disappearance. A huge underwater canal was hiding on that particular place where I left bhaias’ last time. what happened is that, on a sudden, the sands underneath disappeared and bhaias’ fell into the canal (naturally couldn’t keep the balance) and disappeared within seconds! nahid also fell into the trap but managed to raise her hands and razib managed to save her. But my poor little bhaias’ even couldn’t got that chance! nahid saw afif for the last time going to save saad when he was falling down by saying- ‘Bhaia, I’m coming!’ no body knows how they have felt, what they have done in order to survive! God! He do take inhuman exams! Saad has been found in Maheshkhali island the next day around 9 by some boatmen and Afif was found around 3 on that day in Himchari. two brothers have been found in totally two different directions! Afif was telling nahid the day before- ‘nahid apu, we will go to Himchari tomorrow at 3!’

alana · #2 (**permalink**) 09-07-2007, 04:25 AM

ami afif k onk choto belay dekkhechilam..oder basay drawing room er carpet er upor onk gulo khelnar majh khane shuye ghumache...chotto.amar ok oi bhabe dekhe bhishon maya lege jay karon amar bhai jokhn choto chilo o ai bhabe khelna choray rekhe majhkhane ghumay porto...ki bhison innocence chilo ...
ajk afif n saad er kotha pore i cudnt help myself shedding tears...
allah apu nd uncle ,aunty k ai betha sojho korar khomota dik..

Gemini · #3 (**permalink**) 09-07-2007, 10:25 AM

May his soul rest in peace....and may Allah give all of you the strength to move on and be there for each other.

I didn't have the fortune to grow up with one of my sisters 'cuz she passed away before I was born. I can't personally relate to you but I do know how traumatic losing a loved one, specially a sibling can be, because our parents and the eldest sister had gone through that...

ARAFAT · #4 (**permalink**) 09-08-2007, 02:22 AM

self_shattered.........i cant control meself tomar a story pore.....ata kub e mormantik akta gotona.....tomar a story pore amar choto bhia r kotha mone pore gese jake amara goto year a pritivi theke hariye felsi.....allah kivave ato boro dukko manush ke dite pare.....ami jani na