Shirin Banu 
I grew up in a political environment. My mother and father were both part of the Communist Party. In fact my mother was the 'Gono' Party's central member. My maternal uncles were also very political. My involvement was a long-term process - it didn't just start with the War. At the time the war started I was studying Bangla Honours at Edward College. Women fought in different ways away from the
forefront in the Liberation War. They somehow, almost miraculously tore down trees and laying them down on streets, barricading the Pakistani soldiers from moving forward. To Bengali freedom fighters they provided rice, shelter and information. Every house was a camp against the Pakistani Army.
in Pabna is where I saw my first
armed conflict. I was in the forefront at the first phase of the war. There were 28 of us in my military camp. Almost all of them died.
Sometimes people who were right next to me were killed.
What I saw as we moved forward was the remains of massacre after massacre. Lots of corpses on the streets. The group often had to split up, we were often separated for long periods of time from those we knew through the struggle. When we advanced from Pabna to Pakshi Bridge in Kushtia, I found myself among a group of strangers. When I did come across familiar people and we inquired about people who were missing I would get answers like "He died in the juddho." When I first saw a Pakistani soldier, I was disgusted. Our rights, our votes, we should have had our Prime Minister, but they denied these things to us and instead turned on us. The freedom struggle was the work of a lot of anger about that, which is what gave us the inspiration to fight.
There were some difficulties as a woman. In order to hide my identity, I would not bathe for days. Sometimes, I would go 10-15 days with bathing. A cousin who knew my identity, would explain to the others in the pond that I didn't know how to swim. When I had to go to the toilet, I had to wait until night.
The Pabna District Commissioner, Nurul Kader Khan knew there was a woman among the group, but he couldn't identify me even when I was standing right in front of our group as he addressed us. Once a foreign journalist who found out their was a woman in our regimen, asked to see me. Mr Khan asked our group where I was. He was shocked when someone responded pointing to me, "She's here." The journalist took a picture of me with a gun, which brought me a lot of recognition. The Statement of India, wrote a piece about me
titled, "A Shy Girl with a Gun." But I actually fought only for a short time with arms. There were so many others, Taraman Bibi, Runa Das,
Bithika Biswas who fought with me. But they didn't get published at the time.
I was in Pabna till April. I carried a 3-knot 3-Rifle, a 2-2 bolt these were weapons our Pabna DC collected from the police to distribute to
people. We didn't have many arms. We used what we had. I started off using a large fish 'boti' (knife to cut fish) for a long time. When we ran out of ammunition we had to retreat further and further. We eventually went to India for support and to request for more weaponry. In India, they didn't give weapons to us at first.
There was a training camp for women. Sajedur Chowdhury was in charge of the women's training camp in India. I was in the first batch, which had 234 women. We organised ourselves and motivated the people of India to support the Bangladeshi cause. The Communist Parties of the two countries had a strong link.
I provided nursing and military training to some of the women in the camp. Though I thought I would eventually return to Bangladesh to fight in the war, I did not end up returning for the rest of the year. My first day back in Bangladesh was first of the new year, 1972. When the war was over, we thought all of our dreams would come true. All of our dreams did not materialise. Our secular constitution was replaced with an Islamic constitution, we did not get freedom of religion, freedom from hunger, freedom from discrimination.
There is a long history and politics behind the war. A lot of misinformation has been produced since 1971 and now it is creeping into our
children's history books. That is why it so important for me and others who were part of history to tell our stories.
Alamtaj Begum Chhobi
In 1971, I was just 16 year old and an active part of the leftist party of Barisal. I was too young to know what it really meant to be a
political activist. I did not know what would become of me, what people would say. I first came in contact with the leftist movement when I was in class 9. I started absorbing ideas through my brothers, Humayan Kabir and Firoz Kabir, who were very active in the movement. They would have their fellow party friends over the house quite often and I would overhear what they were talking about as I served them tea. I read the leaflets they left lying around the house. Pretty soon I was helping them write the leaflets and paint walls with slogans using crushed coal for ink. In those days women had to wear a 'ghomta' (a veil over their head). Things like romance and talking to boys were not done, at least not openly. Women did not have exposure to a lot of things. Nevertheless, when the time came to stand side-by-side with the men to defend the country, women stepped up to the cause. No woman was forced to go or called to go. Everyone went on their own. What was the point of staying home? Either way we would be attacked at the hands of the Pakistani Army or by rajakars (Bengali collaborators).
My mother cried a lot when I left. She still cries for my brothers who died in the war. When I joined, I met many courageous women
Monika, Bithika Ray, Reba, Rekha, Nur Jahan.Some had been tortured, some had lost their houses to arson, some came with their husbands. My first weapon was the 3-knot-3 rifle. We didn't have a whole lot of arms. Later I carried a light machine gun (LMG), the pistol and hand grenades. At first I was scared about joining the war. But then my courage built up and it has stayed with me. To this day, I have no fear of dying.
When the Liberation War began, Bengalis formed a togetherness for one cause that had ever existed before or will ever exist again. There was no difference between male and female. We often slept side by side across the floor, but at no point were we ever disrespected.
I wore a sari when I joined, then I started wearing a lungi. When that became too inconvenient and finally I moved on to wearing
shirts with pants.
It was the practical thing to do. We had to go through rice paddy and khals (small lakes), wading knee-deep in water. Sometimes the water even came up to our shoulders. We had to stay in the same clothes often for 4 or 5 days at a time without bathing or eating. During the war I killed members of the Pakistani Army and rajakars. I used my guns and I used my bayonet. I gained a lot strength of mind during
that time. That strength of mind is helped me through the bad times.
The first man I killed was a rajakar. I thought it was justified because he has betrayed and wronged people. The rajakars, who were Bengalis, would guide the Pakistani Army to houses that had young women or active freedom fighters. The Army tortured, raped and killed these people to set an example and send a message to the terrorised Bengali people on where they stood. When victory was declared in December of 1971 it was the most joyous moment.
My return to home was a different story. People did not look highly on women who joined the war. And though not a single Pakistani Army officer had laid a hand on me during the war, rumours had gone around about the possibility that I was manhandled or worse. Two months after independence, my husband was lured out of our house by government officials, taken to Jhalokati and killed. I was three months pregnant.
After his death, I went to a relative's house in Dhaka because I knew I would not be accepted back home. She sent me back to my father's house. The community did not receive me well. My parents took me in, but I got cold treatment. I kept going back and forth between my in-laws house and my parent's house. I knew I had to stand on my own. I took up odd jobs paying a monthly salary of taka 40. I sewed, I tutored until I was financially solvent. I used to cry a lot. I used to beat my daughter. I took my anger out on her. I have
nothing to hide. Have I said anything that should bring me shame? This is just the bare truth.
What I faced after I returned from the war, it cannot be expressed in words. And it did not stop with family and community. Politics that
was once a higher cause, became debased. Since independence, I have not continued politics. I have been earning a living and raising my
family. I have learned a lot from life experience. My mission is to pass this knowledge to my daughters. The pain of hunger is a strong
pain. The real war is not fighting in the battle fields. It is what comes after the War. I have led a very different life. I am happy
about that. It has given me the opportunity to have many valuable life experiences. If I could tell anything to today's young woman
I would tell them to educate themselves, they have many opportunities we didn't. Learn to stand on your own.
The interview I gave for BBC and German radio, my words in The Daily Star, these are my certificates. I do not need an inauthentic
"official" certificate from the government. I may not be well-educated, but I know right from wrong.