Different Versions of Truth

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Does Life Really Go On ?

Today I was total exhausted after class. Well , I did exceptionally bad in one class test. Frankly Speaking , I am not of those people , who gets frustrated after a bad exam. But today I have made such a silly mistake , that for a while , I thought that I should kill myself now. Well , enough of exam. I was coming back to my home with bus from azimpur. 1st of all , I saw that Winner ( a bus company) is coming so I was about to buy a ticket. All on a sudden , I saw , the person selling ticket is shutting his counter as quick as possible. I gave him money , and demanded ticket , but he said no need of ticket , just take your seat. First of all , I was quite astonished, but after primary shock , I realize military (army) people are actually uprooted this bus counter from footpath. They sat on footpath illegally . Now after seeing army , they just were in a rush to shut their counter. Anyway , I was on bus. After coming in front of city college , a boy of hardly 17-20 entered in to bus. From very beginning I saw , a confusion in his eye. He came to middle of the bus and opened his bag. Guess what came out ? A bunch of pens and pencils. He actually came there to sell those stuffs. He was pretty novice in this line. He couldn't talk properly I mean that salesman style ( bicchu molom wala) was absent. And I was astonished that his pronunciation is very good specially those english one. Even he didn't speak a good about his product. He just said , all of these products can be found in any shop . In bus , you can just get it at 1 taka less price. After 4-5 min observation , I understood , this boy is well educated. He is doing this work for some unavoidable/ emergency reason and most sad part is , that boy couldn't resist his tear. I understood that this was awful for him. Any normal day for me , I would ask him and try him to help. But I was severe disappointed , so I forgot , what should I do . After some time of that boys departure, I realized that what a mistake I did.

I am really feeling sorry for that boy.

[junkviper]

really the bus incident was pathetic . n u dint do any mistake. coz at best u cud help him by money . but that ud hav been a temp soln. that boy is not the only one .I hav seen graduate nightguards waking up whole through the night( The place where i liv) just for fifty taka! we people dnt hav the true feelin for those poor.The rich, specially, are responsible for it. they dnt perform their duties.
BTW, heart touchin block. i liked it.
why were u absent for so many days ?

[}|Serial_Killer|{]

Thx junkviper. Seems to me, you are my only reader. again thx for that.

well, may be I can help that boy , other than giving just money from me. Like , in my university I have a big enough friend circle. and we have some past experiences of serving people. So , I could give him our address , told him to come to buet and I could arrange some money. Not only this , in Golpo.net , we could also try something for him. But now it's gone. and I am really feeling awful thinking about that incident.

well , past few days I was a bit busy with my studies. and more over , you might have observed that, I am not day-to day blogger I mean not that diary blogger. I love to blog on my thoughts (or reflective blogging). So its pretty hard for me to get new subjects to write very soon.

[junkviper]

atleast u thought to do his good. keep on thinking and performin for those deprived people. if everyone had thought and acted in this way there ud hav been no poverty. but the harsh reality is that whenever people become higher stake holders they simply forget to think in this way(in almost every cases).

lege roho serial killer vai. apko noya topic mil jayega. till then i can hav patience. take ur time.

[}|Serial_Killer|{]

Stand Still Moment

Deep inside me , I can feel that something is going very wrong. I can't find any charm in my life. A charmless , event less life. Sleeping, eating, studying and gossiping with friends are my only works. I am pretty much used to it. But I am wasting my golden time of my life.

For some certain reasons , I cant feel the rhythm of life. I can't say with confidence that yes, life is beautiful. I am on my voyage to travel the same circle again and again.

ok , I should stop now , because my writings are becoming unstable again and is failing to make any sense.

[}|Serial_Killer|{]

Endless End

Today was a vital day for me. And most probly one of the worst days for me. I would not like to pass a day like this.

one more thing interesting. I am pessimistic , nothing new with it. But day by day , its increasing. As I told you before , life has lost all its charms.

and right now , I haven't any inspiration to live. Something is happening to me , a charmless plain dull life , which I always hated.

[junkviper]

vai amaro aj dinta bohut bura katche. inspiration na thakleo bachte hobe!

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In Search Of Some Miracle

I am badly in need of a miracle. I am passing a very stupid time. Shorir valo na. ghum hoitese na thik moto. ajke abar jor o ashlo. er e moddhe koti koti xam dite hocche university te. shob chay pathetic hocche amar concentration level er obostha...... kono kisui ekagro vabe chinta korte pari na...... ato shob 3rd class vul kortesi ajkal exam e..... in a word....ekbare 4th class life lead kortesi ekhon.....

ajke shondhay mone hoilo , ekta miracle er boro dorkar .... akta bad patch er moddho diye jacchi ........

btw : February month is coming ! boi mela again !! ...yeeey..... atlast something to cheer !

[alana]

kothao theke ghure asen...fresh hoye jaben ar sob thik hoye jabe

[AngeL_EyeZ]

eiiii Tutul...boi mela theke amar jonno boi kinte bhulo na...