Evil Me

[angelmorn]

[bfore i strt the blog...this blog is the same piece as in my msn space...plz akek jaigah akek blog maintain korte onekk koshto plus plz excuse the teenage crap....but thtz wat i am...]
exactly how sad is a person when he/she writes a blog?...exactly how many times have i tried to start my blog with the same darn topic???....exactly who is that face staring at my blog right now???....exactly what am i going to write in my blog this time??...exactly how many times shall i be typing the word excatly??...excatly what?...excatly..guess what.....i'll go on with some more questions....
excatly how the hell am i planning to pass my 9th grade finals??...
excatly how many people love me for being me??...
excatly how many people hate me now...and just love to waste their time on backbiting about me??.....[nida...i know you are now....lolz]
excatly how many times can i lie to myself?
excatly what the hell am i doing now?????????????????????????????????????
ok...enough of the word "excatly"...i know you are as tired of seeing the word as i am...well today i am in the mood for writing good stuff...so i'll be blogging down every darn thing that comes into my mind....
the other day while i was sitting down in the pink room of "aamer[mangoo ppl]
desh"[translate into english plz...desh stands for Cafe]...i was looking at a friend of mine who was staring back at me also....we were gossiping about non-stop bullshit and i realized how totally meaningful this all was...i was being me...with my weird ideas and lame jokes...[hey im good at making them and lame jokes are COOL...lolz].......i was laughing...and the question suddenly popped out of my mouth before i could even compose the message in my blooddy mind!..."what is it that makes one love life?".....my friend just stared at me for what seemed like 10 seconds....but then i shrugged..hit myself on the head and said...."crap"...my friend said..."the effect of being a teenager"...i said..."if this is the effect,then its anything but cool".......
so watever ...enough of my crappy ideas...at the moment i am enjoying life and though shocking to some actually reading this blog...im quite happy with my life now...im happy being in school...at home...with my friends...with my family...with my pink bathroom...with my half tuned guitar...with my geometrical room...with my traditional wardrobe...with my perfectly perfect PREFECT badge...with my two school bags...with my studies [itz true...i am happy somehow]..with my everything!
today earlier in school...there was the photoshoot for the yearbook....and i realized there is, if by luck, only three more times that im actually going to sit for something like this.....though i missed sitting next to my pals...my lobhz...[as i had to gather up the people who were actually "bunking" a photoshoot]...i actually kind of loved it...i was busy laughing at the obnoxius jokes being played up by the people of section-A [thnx to you guyz...i finally have a laughing picture in the yearbook]... and i realized how meaningful this picture is going to be for me in years to come...
my friends now stretch to a nice amount...and i know that some are really pissed at me for not giving them the time...and that some just love me being there beside them...and that there are some who would like the past that could have lead to a different me now...and that there are some...who just loove me for whatever i am....[addy i owe my love to you for giving me that weard lecture that i now know the meaning of]...
15 years...it has been a long time...i remember many moments...and i have no recollections of thousandz of moments...i have learned a lot [esp the last year]...i have made loads of mistakes...but still im standing [still as a little hunchback...lolz]...ive made it through this much ...and now lets see...how long a road do i go.................................

[darkcrunk]

Alas, i have finished crossing a couple of thousands of your favourite words and manage to reply here. The teenage crap also had me when i was at your age ( am still a teenager, dont take me as a 25 yr old granpa ). Plus, maintaining a blog is a very hard job and takes a lot of motivation and discipline. Urm.. you sound very much like a typical MM 9th grader, with your definitions of bunking and Mango... r u ?

[angelmorn]

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.............plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............nowhere cloz to MM.......and no planz of goin cloz to it also.....moi proud to be a SCHOLASTICAN!!........[a pure one:P]

[darkcrunk]

Aah . . scholastica . . more familiar atleast heh. Are you near the debating club ? I still remember the day .. sigh.. when we beat Safwan n his stout budd. lol.. well .. i remember having a huge crush on Ditia .. do you play baskbetball ?

[BaNNa]

it seems that u'r a professional writer...
nice to read it...

[angelmorn]

thnx banna.....nope im not a professional writer...but future'a howar iccha ase.......newayz to darkcrunk....ur gr8 bcoz u beat safwan.....ur too gr8 man.

[angelmorn]

when it starts to telling your friends that you no longer want to be their friend...the thought always strikes you...are you sure of wat u r doing??...is this wat to happen??.....the most worst thought that can strike your head at the point is.....do u want to be hated??
thatz my weakness...i can never be totally upright and mean to my friends...even when they can be insufferable pratz...sorry...i cant be mean...itz just not in me....
watever watever.....
the point of me writing this blog is ...nothing...bekar manush...kisu korar nai akhon amar....
the other day...i went for a walk in the lake....amader ekhankar lake'ta beshi boss....so as i was saying...on the walk...thousands and thousands of thoughts came into my head...but not one of them was what i wanted to think about while on a walk....then i suddenly noticed this lady coming towards me....the lady was most prolly on her jogging spree[ !!!! ] ...she was one fat lady [sorry..but she was fat!]...and looked to be fairly rich as both her hands were full of golddddddddddddddd goldddddd and golddddd bangles...[the big fat ugly ones]......as she passed me by i literally had to step aside from the footpath to give her space....following her..was her maid...who looked as if she was getting the better out of the jogging spree.......the maid was thinner than a bamboo stick...was sweating like anything and guess wat she was carrying....a bottle of "mum" and from what i cud figure out a small table fan.....i suddenly felt so sorry for the maid...and so angry at the big fat lady....i mean wat did she bring the maid in for??....her bodyguard or sumthin??.......yea ryt....
this is it...the difference among the ppl....the rich the poor...the literatez and non-literatez....u kno wat it is??.......COMMON SENSE....thtz the difference....
we bangalz are proud to be bangalz....but the fact is our feets are a little too high ......equality is one thing tht we'll never learn to except....and understanding is one vital thing we lack....
if this blog made ne sense to any out there.......u r one intelligent person.......

[ChickenKing]

ho..amer bangalide pa ektu uchai..hudai ohonkar kori

[darkcrunk]

Angelmorn Angelmorn... my lady Angelmorn -- havent you been thinking a lot lately ?

I encounter these sort of incidents too - hell, everyone encounters them everywhere in their daily lives ! .. It is something too common and too big in scale. The whole system is pretty screwed up..

This sort of act is very rare in developed countries... the only reason -- the rate of educated people out there is higher. Much higher than bangladesh. We might have a free market here in bangladesh - only in describings n databases.. but to me, from where ever i see it - i dont see any . . no free market, no democracy.. nothing at all . . ( any Idea how rich T.Zia is ? ) .... and common sense. .. hahahah .. what is common sense.. if u run wearing 2 pounds of gold ?



notes : angelm, m very sleepy...my fingers n eyes tells me to shutup
notes1: angelm, ur words made sense (little though :O ) , and i am very intelligent ( yeii! )

[angelmorn]

darkcrunk darkcrunk....finally i realize u do have some brain....
as for democracy.....is there any in our dhemn country??...look at AL for instance...shalara...they themselves create the caretaker government and all...and now wen the electionz ahead...and they are outta ideaz of how to win...they want a new reformed law on it....how mean how sad can they get......
and by the way...i think the big fat lady was a relative of Tarek zia coz the other day i saw her having tea alone[still wearing the gold]...in the house frontdoor...which iz supoz to be tarek ziaz in-lawz houz....cool aint it?