(A life in a BLoG)

[shmegel]

WELCOME TO SHMEGEL'S BLOG

I've never written a blog in my life
so this will be my first
Asha kori apnader ke bore korbona
I know a blog is supposed to be for me, not others...kintu...
I just can't accept the idea of a blog being a purely personal enterprise!!
So this is in effect for you...

I want heaps of feedback, negative ones included!
Tell me to shut up if Im rambling on etc, you know. I wont mind I wont cry
I can take the occasional criticism. Honest!

and yeh...i guess that's it for my intro stick with me guys,I think I'll need help with this...

Anyways. enough of that. Here thy starteth...

[Chocolate]

Aha great...congrats on opening ur blog..u'll do really good and I will be reaading thru best of luck girl!

[shmegel]

^^Thanks api!!

Tuesday, 7 August 2007

Dear BLoG

lol, how do i start. i guess at the moment im lost about what to write. ei 'lostness'er akta simple karon ase. that is: I have an exam this afternoon, and an exam tomorrow and one on friday. so at the moment im so nervous, that my stomach is churning painfully...but im still here. really, i need someone to hit me accross the ear until i see, hear and speak nothing but porashuna

Maybe im here because i feel in control. its my blog, my very own online blog...I can write whatever the hell i want (well, no not really, it is public afterall) but u know, express how i feel to a bunch of people that can all relate to one another...Its different to writing an english essay...i dont have to think so hard for starters...

I dunno, but im loving this feeling. a part of me is tugging at my shoulders, telling me to rip my eyes away from the screen...but the emotional thrill driving my fingers over the keyboard is unstoppable. I feel as though writing here for me is almost as mandatory as sitting tomorrows english exam...i dunno. i think i was wrong. i dont need a hit accross my ear

I need a punch

id better leave it here for today...the next time I'll write will probably be in a week and a half...but then again, i might get distracted and write in here tomorrow *off to study again*...until next time

Apnader
Shmegel

[Addabaj]

Nice start Api. Amon kore likhle porte moja laage. Keep it up ...

[DarKsaInt]

WoW!!!shemgel api ..Nice start Nd congr8z for opening ir blog

Keep it up

Moja lagse pore

[shmegel]

^^wow, thanks my sweet bhaias!!

7 hours later, 7 August 2007

Dear BLoG

so much for 1 and a half weeks!! i knew id get distracted but this quick? pathetic. But i was just thinking about something so ekhane chole ashlam abar...

You know, I never believed it when people said your final year of school is the best year. I always imagined it to be 12 hard months of rigorous study, not taking your head out of the books etc. But i was wrong. This year has been different (well, i discovered golpo.net this year which is a big enough deal on its own ) a transition between adolescence and adulthood. A year for coming to terms with the fact that 'I', the mere 12 year old child who had nervously walked into high school on her first day several years back, is about to walk out of it in only 3 months...

Its been a year of wonders. THE year of wonders...

In 3 months, i'll be venturing into a world of making my own decisions, of looking after myself. Ive grown up too fast (not in height tho, damn!) but i know so little about the world. I mean, i cant even catch a train to save my life. I cant cook, clean up after myself, work, get to places. how can i survive university? im not excited anymore...'theres no place like school' suddenly comes to mind...

I never wanted this entry to sound so depressing. i think its because i forgot the other things i had to talk abt. these exams r getting 2 me Dhurr, shakespeare ke jodi ressurect korte partam, taile bhalo hoito.

bhalo kore bangla shikaye ditam

off to study for english again wat a GIANT entry. no more for today. abar dekha hobe

Love,
Shmegel paglee

[Elektra]

awww, u're so good at writing. keep it up

[alana]

blog er title ta besi joss hoise

[Gemini]

are joss...am liking it. Likhte thako.
Shob cheye best year hoyse high school er first year

[Bristir Chhonde]

ORE BAPZ, Apuni ja likhla, ebon i agree tomar title ta onek pochondo hoiche amar. KEEP IT UP!