Neel Projapoti'r Kichu Kotha..

[Lamia]

Mood: Nutral.. Weird.. Confusing..

Listening to: Bujhtesina ki gaan shuntesi..

Its my cousin's wedding after 6 days.. I first thought chotto vabe nijera nijera mile just biye ta hoye jabe.. But now shuntesi about 700 guests hobe.. Shobai invited.. Amar cousin er wedding ar ami thakte parbona.. It hurts how im missing all those things.. Really.. I just came from BD so its not gonna be possible for me to go now.. Otherwise, jaitam sure... Really missing it a lot when I think about it..

Class khola.. Matha aula houar moto obosta hochche.. Mayb im gonna take a year off dunno.. Dads quite certain about the moving away thing.. N me? Well dunno.. Jai hok, I gotta go now, pore abar lekhbo.. Till den ciao..

[Lamia]

Mood:

Dreamy.. Typical Aulaness..
Listening To:Tomar Jonno..

Tomar Jonno

Tomar jonno shindhur neel.. Aro hobe shopnil..
Udash dupure rag boshonto gaibe shonali chil.. X 2
Tomar joto bhul shob.. Nimeshe hobe phul..
Tobu bhalobashi sudhu tomay.. Nishi din shara bela..
Tomar jonno shindhur neel.. Aro hobe shopnil..
Udash dupure rag boshonto gaibe shonali chil..

Tomar jonno morur buke abesh jhorabe shobuj..
Tomar jonno shanto nodita hoye jabe aro obujh.. X 2
Tomar joto bhul shob.. Nimeshe hobe phul..
Tobu bhalobashi sudhu tomay.. Nishi din shara bela..
Tomar jonno shindhur neel.. Aro hobe shopnil..
Udash dupure rag boshonto gaibe shonali chil..

Tomar jonno raater mohakaal hazar tara jhikmik..
Dosshu cheleta poth hariye hathbe dikbidik.. X 2
Tomar joto bhul shob.. Nimeshe hobe phul..
Tobu bhalobashi sudhu tomay.. Nishi din shara bela..
Tomar jonno shindhur neel.. Aro hobe shopnil..
Udash dupure rag boshonto gaibe shonali chil..

Ekta manush oneek kharap hote pare.. They say that all your repressed thoughts and feelings from childhood can pop out anytime in later life.. They say our current personality and behaviour is constructed from our past experiences.. They say there is a certain "beast" inside every soul that may come out in particular uncontrolled situations..

I feel like i'm hypnotized.. Seriously.. I can say anything right now that comes in my head.. I feel like i'm not where i think i'm.. I suddenly feel like everything is a dream.. Including, my past, my wishes, my experiences.. Everything.. It is said that all dreams are wish-fulfilment.. It's good to live in a dream thou.. U can escape anytime you wish..

Amader ashe pashe akhono oneek manush ache jara akhono daily hazar hazar taka pani te fele.. If have 5 cars, they buy 5 more.. Tara sharadin raastay ghure beray tader oi gari gulay.. Simultaneously, amader ashe pashe akhono oneek manush ache jara sharadin raastay ghure ghure vhikka kore.. Jate tara daily time moto khete pare.. Tader family ke khaoaite pare..

They say your surroundings affects your behaviour.. They say many important influences on behaviour come from a part of the mind we have no direct awareness of.. They say love is nothing but emotional label attributed to explain physiological arousal..

Yes I know ami ajaira boktesi.. Lol moja lagtese tai ajaira boktesi.. How about the nightmares then? The nightmares that a 7/8 yrs old kid may have.. That they are murdering someone very close.. Is that as well wish-fulfilment?

Ato selfish amra? Agula dekhi.. shuni.. jani.. tobuo keu kichu korena.. Korleo that's limited? Pity.. Amar moto onekei just sit there and watch.. Everytime I saw a 9/10 yr old kid walking around the street and getting screamed by some specific type of people, never could control my tears.. Even if I think about it all, get goosebump.. We just watch, listen to the same things over n over again and just sit there.. Including me.. There are people who would do anything to help them.. Who tries all times to help them.. I wish human beings were less selfish..

[Lamia]

Mood: Nutral..

3rd of November.. The day was amazing.. Everything was amazing.. Everything seemed beautiful.. It snowed.. Summer jacket pore eka eka snow pora dekhsi.. Manush ghure ghure amar kando-kormo dekhtesilo.. Sec e sec e emotional hoye jacchilam.. Jekono shomoy burst korte partam erokom type.. Abar same time I was the happiest.. Mane odvhut ekta feeling.. God is great.. Last 4 yrs shopner moto pass hoye geche.. Shopno theke jekono shomoy escape kora jay.. Ami just eitai doa kori jeno shopno amar kach theke kokhono escape na kore..

College er pressure din e din e bartese.. Ajiiiib ei IB.. They keep u stressed 24/7.. Ki r kora.. Jai hok.. Tataz for now..

[shmegel]

wow, apu, you write really well...i really dont know wat to say wen people feel neutral, lol. i guess i feel that way too after reading the last few entries...keep it up

[Lamia]

Originally Posted by shmegel

wow, apu, you write really well...i really dont know wat to say wen people feel neutral, lol. i guess i feel that way too after reading the last few entries...keep it up

Lol thank u apu.. Just ja mathay ashi lekhi, orokom lekha-lekhi korte parina.. hehe hmmm..

[Asif Mahbub]

i like the way Lamia writes her blog most. this girl is a full of talent without any doubt ashole e appi tor blog likha awesome . keep it up.

[Lamia]

Originally Posted by Asif Mahbub

i like the way Lamia writes her blog most. this girl is a full of talent without any doubt ashole e appi tor blog likha awesome. keep it up.

lol amar modhdhe kono talent i nai.. jai hok, tobuo thanks.. ;S

Mood: Annoyed!!

Thik-thak asi.. Kichuta annoyed..! Kichu kichu behaviour dekhe annoyed just ar kichuna! Annoyed-ness ta pashe fele onno topic uthai.. London topic.. Yap, that's it! Ami Lamia Sarwat Omi once again London jacchi.. 1st of Jan raat e.. Amar sneher pita Zahir Hossain Khan er sathe.. Amar dear-est hobu Jamai Tauhidul Islam Taskin er sathe dekha korar jonno.. Well technically jacchi onno kichu kaaj e, but literally jacchi oijonne.. Apnara doa koriben jeno shob thik-thak rekhe jibito, dhora na khaiye Finland e bak korite pari..

Ajke "I am Legend" dekhlam hall e.. Biggest hall tay chilo so vallagse.. Porshu tickets book kore rakhsilam, n seats gula valo chilo ebar.. BUT of course something had to go wrong! 1 hr age jehetu tickets kat te hoy, so amra mela plans kore one hr age giyei pouchay dekhi bishaaal line.. Oi que e daray thakte thakte dear-est cashier gula onno kono idiot-ic customers der kache amader reserved kora tickets gula sell kore diyeche! Pore amader shamner 2nd first row te ek corner er seats i enjoy korte holo! Kharap hoynai obosso! Movie'r modhdhe hut-hat Will Smith n oi ajib monsters gular kando dekhe topo'r opor lafay othar moto obosta hoisilo oneekbar i! Lol jai hok, mojai hoise ajke..

X-mas e eibaro kono snow chilona.. Oh he ajke Boxing Day.. Arekjon raat 2 tar shomoy ek friend er basha theke bashay giye abar vhor 4 tay ber hoise Boxing Day te shopping korar jonno! Jehetu shob sale e! Tao abar shopping korse shondha 7 ta porjonto! Kopale dukhkho ase oitar!! Mela jhari ase kopale tar ajke! Ajiib polapain!!

I miss blabbering here.. Pray i ei blog er page khule plan kori kichu lekhbo.. But oh well.. Kichu paina tokhon lekhar.. Ar amar post ettooo kome gese keno?? Hobena!! Manina!! Shob tomar dosh!! ;( Kar dosh?? Janina.. Hobenaaaaaa! Ami uthbo! Valoi hoise.. Oneek annoyed chilam kichukkhon age.. Ei lekha-lekhi'r modhdhe oi annoyed-ness haray haway mishe carbon dioxide hoye gese..

Ajker moto tata bye bye..
Valo thakben.. Sushto thakben..
Ei kamona kore, ami Lamia Sarwat Omi..
From Phin-Land..

[Asif Mahbub]

tui jekhane jabi shekhane kono jhamela hobena ta kivabe possble?? r ami ki jante pari phone ta na dhorar cz ta ki? amar to appointment kora chilo

[Vanquish]

Apu can you tell me the name of the artist who sang "tomar jonno shindhur neel" ? It's quite nice!

[Lamia]

Originally Posted by Asif Mahbub

tui jekhane jabi shekhane kono jhamela hobena ta kivabe possble?? r ami ki jante pari phone ta na dhorar cz ta ki? amar to appointment kora chilo

Sheitai.. Ami to shob jhamelar mul..

Originally Posted by Vanquish

Apu can you tell me the name of the artist who sang "tomar jonno shindhur neel" ? It's quite nice!

Balam.. Thats the name of the album atleast..