Thoughts of a Chaotic Mind

[Gemini]

Ah so I have jumped on the bandwagon as well. Actually this isn't my first blog on the net... And i've been writing for years now.

Jaukgga. I will try to refrain from writing a lot of personal stuff but they still may find their way in here so if you're not into reading about other people's story, don't bother reading this thread.

[k13]

yes...of course not ... i'dn think of reading YOUR blog u knw...
i mean its YOUR blog... y wud I read it??

[Sundori]

nice of u to start a blog.. yeh.. its ur blog..dont hesitate to write anything

[Gemini]

K-13 ekhono raag kore aso? Are bhai tokhon to okhane Mod chhilam...offtopic shojjho hoyto nah. Chorom Ot allergy ase amar. Jai hok gaal fulafuli baad dao miya

Sundori, you see, I do exactly that. But based on my experiences, I know people can't take it when someone speaks their mind by letting their thoughts flow naturally and/or choose to write certain things about..well themselves. It's kinda binding in a way. Anyways. Will see how it goes here

And a small request to everyone:

Please discuss my blog in the appropriate section provided: Gossip on the Blogs

Not in this thread. I mean section to ekta khola achhei na for discussions?

[Gemini]

Yieeppyy my first blog entry in Golpo

Wednesday
July 25, 2007
11:20 Pm

I was actually smiling by myself a couple of seconds ago. Ah the dilemma with long distance calls from Bd. My dad in particular seems to have a tougher time with it. He's there right now and man everytime he calls my mom can't hear a thing. When I pick up the phone I can hear him fine. Most of the time at least I was actually snickering at their communication gap. Evil little me. Sigh.

Nijer shomporke temon kichhu bolar nai. You guys, am sure at least gotten some idea about me through the posts i've made. Plus some of you have seen me in person...so..

A little word of warning though. I tend to speak my mind. A lot. I don't do too well with conventional things, people, thoughts and to some extent, even lifestyles. Narrowminded people turn me off quicker than anything. So do people with major religious, traditional etc influence. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an atheist and most certainly not non-traditional. It just depends on the subject in question. But I'm a free-thinker and belive almost everyone should get a chance. Including homosexuals, wanted criminals (innocent until proven guilty thing), outcasts and people who tend to wander off to the beaten path once in a while. Am seriously hoping I'm not the only one with this kinda mindset here

I'm a mildly-sadistic-but-happy-out-of-the-box-metalhead-tomboy (if I really had to label myself, that's the label am willing to go with eventhough I hate labels). Oh yea and sometimes I tend to be superficial and sorta mean as well. But I guess thats what most of us are guilty of, not just I I'm a plethora of things. Not easy to figure out or even love. I'm not expecting either from anyone here. Just hear me out once in a while and I'll be grateful
But hey, if I end up rocking your boat, nice

All in all, I'm a simple girl who loves tearing up the roof as much as a quiet time in her own room. I'm nothing out of the ordinary and would like to think not boring. I tend to be quite an entertainer, If I do say so myself. And I love to be entertained as well. Boredom to me feels like what it feels for a fish to be out the water. Especially when am mentally bored. This agile mind of mine needs to be stimulated in a constant basis otherwise I get burned out. No wonder I don't like being with people who aren't good conversationalists I tend to talk a lot or think out loud, depending on the situation (am sure you've noticed. It's the whole Gemini thing). I can be quite sarcastic as well..only my sarcasm and humour tend to lean towards the witty side vs. any other.

Oh and did i mention I love cats but own a turtle instead?


Edit: me and my stupid typos. Mods can you PLEASE change the "Chatic" to CHAOTIC? "A Chatic mind" just sounds...stupid

[dark_saint]

Nice .........keep it up Gemini

[Severus]

share some of ur special recipes

[Gemini]

Thanx for reading

Severus: ekta deem shiddho korba...korar pore otake mash korba...shathe indur marar bish mishaba. Mishay nijer khaite ichha hoyle khaba naile barir indur gulare khaway diba. Or ichha hoyle duijon ekshathei khaite paro


Thursday
July 26, 2007
3:08 pm

5 yrs ago today I was in Dhaka. It was probably my 2nd day there and i was having a blast already. It was my first visit to Dhaka after 6 yrs of being out of touch with the country and almost everyone in it. I was just stuck in our apartment though. Just catching my breath there.

All this just makes me wonder..What if I just didnt go there? What if I just didn't get on the plane with the rest of my family and landed in Dhaka? One small incident and I could have prevented most things that the next 5 years brought. But well...had the best time there and the a lot of things in the next 5 years have taught me some really important things so I'd rather not complain. But just wondering..

Do I miss Bd? Thik jani nah. I guess I love the idea of it. Seeing/being with the people that I know/love/am related to. Friends that i've known for most of my life and the ones I have met thanks to the internet. I've met some really nice souls through this particular medium.

Severus er blog-e to heavy choltese..equavalent of WWIII But what i don't get is...why is everyone writing in the thread? I mean a blog should be only for the blog opener to write in. Anything else should go in the Gossip on the Blog section. Should it not?

Random thought: Multi-tasking takes real talent and I thank God for giving me the ability to do it so smoothly and make it look so damn effortless. Don't believe me?
Right now am:

Listening to the Foo Foo Fighters (well i just scanned the list and opted for Gwen Stefani for a change)
Thinking about a pretty important event tomorrow
Chatting with a bro of mine
Getting to know a person
Chatting with a friend (well sorta)
Plus writing this blog
And carrying on a fragmented convo with my little sis who happens to be within earshot.

I'm proud of still being able to be in one piece after all these hard work (sarcasm, in case you missed it).

All these travel talk with Wil is making me really wanna hop on a plane and go to Europe. A lifelong dream of mine. Well not just mine. I wont go there alone, I'll drag my best friend O with me. That's gonna be our joint adventure. We already have a loooonng To-Do list Ekhon khali pocket e ektu beshi $ thaklei hoyto. Shoja ber hoye portam..providing that our parents wont really freak out at the idea of two girls hangin out in the streets of Europe, alone. I mean we plan to take the Eurorail and travel 14 countries. It's a pretty sweet deal if you got the $. I don't have any close relatives in Europe but she has some..and lucky for us, they're in most of those countries

Yeah so visiting Europe is my biggest dream. Besides having a stable family life and a career to boot. And not owing anyone my life. Not to mention to have godsend children. Err yeaa...I'd rather not think about all that right now. First things first.

Am kinda freakin out over tomorrow. I got my reasons. But it should be pretty good if it goes according to plan. Should be cool.
Oh yes and the bbq on saturday. I dont think I can make it there. So if I don't show up...just carry on and have one hell of a time. I'll drop by to see the photos

Okay all these multi-tasking is making the people am chatting with feeling a bit ignored so am gonna give it rest here. Ciao!

[Gemini]

Friday
July 26, 2007
1:42 pm

Butterflies in the stomach. Woke up to a cloudy sky. Thinkin whether I should take my (secret) muse to see the sunset on a day like today. I really hope it doesnt rain. Eventhough I love rain...i just don't wanna see it today.
I hope they have a great exhibition on Peru at the museum. I hope I run into my ex at the pub while having lunch with my (secret) muse. Well he's not an ex per se...just the last person I dated. A tres unfortunate event. Coincidently am going to his favourite watering hole with my (secret) muse. Secret, as in my muse doesn't know that they're my muse. They don't know that they were the reason I was able to get back to drawing after a 7 month creative block. I should go and get ready. I hope the rain doesn't ruin our evening.
Butterflies in the stomach....

[Gemini]

Random tidbits, On Golpians

Saturday
July 28, 2007
5:24 pm

Half of yesterday was great. The other half was total hell. Great balance of things if i do say so myself. Still dealing with the hellish part. Dont know when I'll be finished. Or when it'll be finished with me. Joss stuff 'Nuff said...have no desire to elaborate.

On Golpians...

I haven't been in Golpo for long but ever since the first day I've been able to fit in. At least that what its feels like. I guess I do stick out once in a while but overall I think am doing fine I like the place. And I like you guys. Most of you anyways And now am gonna deliver the dirt on you guys! Let's start with Severus since he's basically the reason I signed up for an Id in Golpo.

Severus: I ran into him another forum. I became a member of the staff team later on so I guess I can refer to him as my ex-colleague Pretty sarcastic. Probably isn't as bad as he appears to be Could be intimidating. Can be a royal pain in the ass for some. Can do better than that if he wants am sure hehehe...Has a pretty good defense built around him too, I think. The biggest Snape fan I've ever seen. Sometimes people tend to confuse him with being a Harry Potter fan. Well Snape is not Mr. Potter.

Hellzpori:Don't really know her or much about her except that we live in the same city and she lives near Angel_Eyez. Speaks her mind..saw some of her posts and is quite straight forward about her religious beliefs. I like that in her. Is cute too.

GuitarNStrings: Is quite funny and easy going. Has a pretty good sense of humour. Gaatok manush. Poshupakhira tar proti onek attracted feel kore. Specially seagulls, chorui pakhi and most of all- Kobutors Good to have him around in addas.

Zero-Cool: As far as I've observed him- Onek boro addabaj. Hoychoy korte bhalobashe. Pretty good at flirting too. Don't know how many have fallen for it But I guess his insides may be a bit different than how he chooses to appear. Has a pretty good defense built around him as well with pretty good reasons. Can't say it's the right type of defense though
Chorom Coke (the drink, not the drug) addict.

Abhie: I've seen him in another forum under a different nick. Just found that out a few days ago. He once asked me whether i'd mind if he used one of my photographs as his desktop pic. That was one of the biggest compliments I've received on my works.
Umm...dont really know him that well to say much but he's really into music and has a good taste. Judging from some of the posts in the forum, I'd say he's a bit of a romantic at heart and is quite respecting towards elders

Angel_Eyez:She was most probably the first person on my msn from Golpo. Is friends with two of my friends from different social circles Is quite nice. Ekhono dekha hoy nai. Besh kichu khetre our mentalities are similar. But as far as her posts go in Lovers' Sections: she's probably a romantic dreamer. May even possess a little bit fairytale-ish type of ideas. Beshi hindi movie dekho naki?

Icy:He thinks I know a lot about and have a great in music. Not to mention I have beautiful eyes. Eto compliments kothay rakhi? hahaha

Megh_Balika:Don't know anything much about her either except that she's really beautiful and is a model. Read a few of her blog entries and I have to say they were awesome. A lot of her feelings and thoughts go into writing, it appears.

There are few others and I'll deliver the dirt on you laterz...