Thoughts of a Chaotic Mind

[PraNTiK]

"American girls...all they care for is money, Priyanka"

---> bepar shotti naki???

hmm

kono kaj na thakle golpei thako

[Gemini]

Jani na shotti ki na. Manush to prithibi ta dekhe nijer nijer moto korei.
Or kache hoyto tai mone hoy, jemon amar nijer kacheo onek kichu mone hoy

[Gemini]

Tuesday
Nov. 20, 2007
12:33 AM (early morning)

Keno jani kichui bhalo laagche na. I should go to sleep soon. I'm finding myself turning to
Allah more than ever these days...and it feels good.

[Gemini]

Tuesday
Nov. 20,2007
10:56 PM

Koekta karone ami shob shomoy nijeke bhaggoboti mone kori.

Amar shojjho khomota

Amar chomotkar acting skills

Amar onek kichu bujhe newar khomota

Manush ke bujhiy shujiye thanda rakhar khomota

Amar bhalobashar khomota

Ghrina koraro khomota

Amar mukto manushikota

Amar upbringing

Amar jed

Shob kichur duita side dekhar khomota. I'm specially thankful for this because this has prevented me from so much trouble in life. Manush usually shob kichur ekta side dekhei shiddhante pouchhe jete pochondo kore. Ami na.

Amar intuition. Er karone ami onek bar beche gechhi

Ar ki....aro onek kichui. Tobe shob kichur urdhe amar shojjho korar khomota. Babar chokhe du dubar osru dekheo ami shojjho kore gechhi. Er chaite boro porikkha ar ki hote pare?

[shmegel]

yes apu, i agree. patience is one of the best virtues!!

ooo ghrina korar khomota pore interesting legeche. amaro ei khomota ta ache

[Gemini]

Wednesday
Nov. 21st, 2007
10:55 PM

Bepar ta na egolei bodhhoy bhalo. Or jonneo, ar amar jonneo. This is not the time, nor the place, nor the phase. Manush to bhul bar bar korte pare na Shomoy goriye jache....

second thought: Maybe I should just ask straight up. Kora thik hobe ki na ke jane. O to golpo banate bhalobashe. Aaj jemon msn e boshe boshe eka eka banachhilo pore dekhte dekhte amiyo banate shuru korlam. Hoyto etao or banano kono jibonto golpo. Lekhok ra onek odbhut hoy...Tobe chorabaali te paa porar aagei dekhe shune paa fela uchit. Shudhu taholei chorabaalir grash theke manush beche jete pare. Jotodur shombhob chorabaali theke nijeke bachiye niye chole jawatai amar uddeshsho....

[Gemini]

Thursday
Nov. 22nd, 2007
3:29 pm

Aaj ami bhishon khushi. Finals er shomoy boi khata tule rekhe jei exams gulo diyechilam, tar result eshechilo ashaotit. Shey tukutei ami khushi chilam. Jei course ta niye shob cheye worried chilam sheta tei shob cheye beshi improvement chilo. Ami tatei khushi chilam..

Ontario Ministry of Training, Colleges and University aaj ekta shada khaam elo ektu aage. Goto kaal o ekta eshechilo, amar signature tader chai. Aaj ker ta keno ei proshno mathay rekhe khaam khule official chithi ta pore bujhte ektu shomoy laglo. Loan ta approve hoyeche. Sheta to bujhlam. Tar niche duto line abar ki?

Tarpor bujhlam. Ministry theke amake duto grant dewa hoyechhe. Amake kokhono ferot dite hobe na! Amar chaite aj beshi khushi amar baba maa. Odin baba ekta karone besh koshto peyechilen (amar karone na, onno kichu). Aaj hoyto uni sheta ektur jonno holeo bhule gechhen. Tai to amar onek kichur shodh newa/dewa hoye giyechhe.

Tobe it's far from over. Aro onek ta poth amake jete hobe. Aro oneker onek shodh bodh baki. Amake kichu manusher theke onek kichur shodh nite hobe. Asha korchi totodin tara beche thakben

[Tepantor]

Gemini
Shodh neuar jei beparta.......Sheta ki neuata joruri?Time ekta bepar.....
I think manush ja kore sheta se firei pai..........Tumi shodh na nileo........Allah sheita niye neben kono na kono bhabe....

Congratz by the way

[Gemini]

Yeah Allah'r upore shey bisshash amar achhe. Tobe manusher o majhe majhe nite hoy, manusher moto kore

Thank you

[Gemini]

Saturday
Nov. 24th, 2007
10:13 PM

Boro mamar bashae boshe achhi. Proti weekend ei mamar bashay shobai meele adda mara hoy. Shobai bolte 4 mama, 3 mami ebong prai shomoye shobar kids. Shara shoptah eto dekha hoy na tai shoptah shesher ei adda.

Ajker adda ta oboshsho onno rokom. Nanir shorir bhalo na. Uni upore nijer roome ghumachhen. Flu hoyeche nanir. Doc er kache jaben na, tai bashay naki doc dakte hoyechilo. Maa dupur 2 to theke ekhane. Ami kaj theke bari phire 3/4 ghonta porei ekhane chole eshechhi. Obbhash er moto hoye gechhe ei barite asha. Shoptah e at least ekbar na ele mone hoy ki jani ekta kora baad gechhe. Nani amar onek priyo ekta manush.

Eshe chhute giyechilam nani ke dekhte. Uni ghumiye giyechilen. Giye dekhi tv ta cholche, nanir ek haate remote ta tokhono dhora. Ami aste kore remote ta niye Tv ta bondho kore doroja bhiriye chole elam. Kitchen e ekhon table ghire shobai boshe golpo korche. Golpor khei ekekbar palte jachhe ei topic theke oi topic. Ami besh kichukhon chilam, tarpore chole elam ekhane. Orthat net e. Ekhon ghure phire abar desher golpo shuru hoyechhe. Boro mama phire eshechen prai 2 mash hote chollo. Deshe giyechilen 22 bochor por.

Ami Canada te ashar aage mama ke dekhechilam ek bochor boyoshe, shey kotha amar moneo nei. Mejho mama keo eto beshi dekhini. Germany theke uniyo boddhoy giyechilen 2/3 baar. Canada te move korar pore aar janni. Aar ami onek choto thaktei nani ke niye baki mama ra Canadar pothe pari diyechilen. Majhe oder dekhechi 2 bar, jodiyo choto mama ekbaro jae ni. Ekhon majhe majhe bhabi eder shobai ke chhara eto bochor chilam ki kore?
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Ki karone jeno mon ta oto bhalo lagche nah. Nanir karone to botei kintu shetao thik ei khetre daayi nah. Amar jibone ashole shob kichu ordhek ordhek. Oke amar pochondo noy ekbarei, ta noy. Kintu bat e ball e milchhe nah. Shunnota ekta thekei jachhe jodiyo o compromise e prostut. Kintu ami parbo nah. Ami eto mohan noy. Amader jiboner srot bhishon prithok. Ami or protita jinish, expectation, idea, lifestyle, religious beliefs, shob respect kori. I just don't fit in there

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