Thoughts of a Chaotic Mind - Page 37

khekshial · #**361** (**permalink**) 03-07-2008, 02:29 AM

Quote:

Ami: Areh blushing rakh, ko bashay koite hoybo

lolzzzzz

delilah · #**362** (**permalink**) 03-07-2008, 02:37 AM

sweet.......

Gemini · #**363** (**permalink**) 03-07-2008, 09:59 AM

Amader kotha bartar bohor shune amar baap maayer prayei heartfail hoye jae.....

delilah · #**364** (**permalink**) 03-07-2008, 10:37 AM

he he i am sure heartfail hole o tara jene khusi hon je tomra dujone onek enjoy koro ake oporer company which is so obvious apuni...

Both of you are lucky to have each other....ar amon kotha chaliye jao sob shomoy...be ever green ever fresh and tankify all the time with ur bor

Gemini · #**365** (**permalink**) 03-09-2008, 04:20 AM

Saturday
March 08/2008
4:15 PM

Random thought 1: Jhal murita asholei PROCHONDO jhaal. Maa eita ki banailo???!! Damn my mouth's on fire!! But darn taste good!

Thought 2: Oh sheesh...2008 is turning out to be one heck of a year!!!

3: Maybe I HAVE overreacted a bit? Maybe I should've been a bit more supportive? But then again..HELLO?! I'm under immense pressure and the last thing I need or want is another one. This might sound selfish but then again..if am not happy, if am not being able to take care of myself properly...how can I be there for anyone else?? That too about love related stuff. Like I know so much about these things!!! Right now I can't be there for anyone else...even if he's a best friend. Right now my things are what matters the most to me and that's the truth. I'm going bonkers here and the last thing I need is to deal with someone's love life. Eta jodi keu respect korte na pare...then kichu bolar nai!

Gemini · #**366** (**permalink**) 03-13-2008, 07:59 AM

Wednesday
March 12, 2008
9:08 PM

Kalke ekta mojar jinish hoyse. Last night was quite fun actually. The four of us went out to get some shopping done for him (me, my parents, him). My dad called a cab and when it was here, utthe giye dekhi obangali cab chalokti hocche amar picchi kaler prothom premik. Ami chomke giyechilam. Ami manushke mone rakhte pari so caber adho ondhokare ami oke dekhe thiki chinechilam. Kintu kichu bolini. Shamne baba. Pechone ek pashe maa, majhe ami, amar pashe amar hobu bor.

Cholte cholte mone hocchilo how we were back then in school (grade 9.) The affair was very short lived (hardly a week) because we were basically kids and he had this huge crush on someone else So we just remained friends for a while until he started screwing up his life with some buddies of his. Then I decided we're better off not being friends. As a friend I tried to be there for him, but that didn't work so I gave up and we lost touch.

And there he was...after almost 10 years driving the same cab I was taking with my future husband. We got off at our destination and while walking beside him, I quitely said "That was actually my first boyfriend ". He looked at me with a puzzled expression and said "What?!!!" I nodded with a half-evil grin. He said "God Pri, he is NOT good looking " And we both laughed. He's right but he should've seen him 10 years ago. He was one of the best looking kid in whole grade 9. He's hardly recognizable now. He had once dreamt of becoming a policeman too, but it's pointless to point that out to anyone. Probably no one would even believe it. Who knows what happened to that dream of his. Who knows what turn his life took for which he's driving a cab instead of a police car!

Then off we were to do some shopping for the groom. Then it was my turn. Later we had a wonderful dinner and spent a joyful time together!

Bristir Chhonde · #**367** (**permalink**) 03-14-2008, 08:31 PM

LOL congratz once again api....how lovy lovy conversations....so sweet...May God Bless you!!

Gemini · #**368** (**permalink**) 03-15-2008, 02:13 AM

Lovey lovey koi dekhla?

Thanx again sis.

Kono ekta bishoye ajkal mon prochondo kharap thake....prochondo chintito thaki ami. Hashtei jeno bhule gechhi. Dowa koro

Tepantor · #**369** (**permalink**) 03-16-2008, 09:32 PM

Keno?Ki hoyechhe gemini?
Mon keno kharap thakbe?Ei meye mon bhalo koro

Gemini · #**370** (**permalink**) 03-17-2008, 07:48 AM

Mon kharap na, tension about a few things

But right now am doing much better than I have been in the past 3/4 days.

Sunday
March 16, 2008
8:38 PM

It's almost 9 pm and Iron Maiden is rockin the A.C.C concert venue. Ebaro live Maiden dekha holo nah. Konodin kopale thakle ebong totodin beche thakle kono ekdin jawa hobe hoyto

Aar 7.5 ta deen. Bhabtei merudondo beye ekta kemon jeno heemshitol srot boye jachhe. Aar matro 7.5 ta deen por amar biye. Kolponao konodin korini eto taratari erokom ekta kichu ghote jabe. Naah bhabbo na Eeeeeeeeeee am freaking out Biye maanei onek boro ekbar bepar. HUGE. GIGANTIC. MONUMENTAL. The preparation may be a dream. The wedding ceremony a true fairytale. But after all that subsides, true life begins.

Ami ki purapuri toiri? I have absolutely NO CLUE But I'd love to start a new life with Z. This much I know. I also know it will be anything but easy at times. I know we have some bumpy roads ahead of us and being in our special shoes, we know some of those bumpy roads may be exceptionally bumpy. But still, I'd love to be with him. I have always appreciated his existence. He is the one I've been looking for. He is the person I've been trying to find in those ghosts and failed. I hope Allah will bless us all through out our lives.